Dear KORI

Dear Kori.. Today is your birthday. You are 3 today.. I miss you so much. Im sure you are having a great time in heavan with all your loved ones. Say hi to Grandpa for me.. I have so many emotions today. I remember how strong the spirit was when i was in labor. I could not shed a tear. I remember when you came out and you were so beautiful. You were so tiny! i loved that hour and a half we got. To hold you and to let you know how much you love you. I was so sad, but happy to know you chose me to be your mommy. You are perfect and that is such a comfort to me and your Daddy. We will get to raise you and be with you forever. What a great feeling. I think the hardest part was giving the nurse your precious body when you decided it was time to be with your heavenly father again. Your visit was so short. but forever remembered. Me and your dad had the hardest time leaving the hospital cause we knew that we were leaving without a baby. But heavenly father comforted us so much. We knew we would be okay. The day that we had your graveside Was a very painful day also. Your dad got you dressed in a beautiful white dress. and we put a picture of us 3 in your tiny casket with you. We all look so happy. Of course my milk came in that day. So i was swollen and crying over everything. We are dealing with pain that i still think about everyday of my life. There is a selfish side of me that wants you on the earth right now. But i know you are in a much better place. I cant help but think of what a blast you and Brylee would have. Im sure you are just the best big sister anyone could ask for. KORI.. I want you to know i have a testimony of this gospel. I love it so very much. I am so thankful for the attonment and for our savior. I am so thankful for the love and bond we have. and for the wonderful experiance it was to go through what i did. It made our whole family so close. I am thankful for trials. they are hard but heavenly father would never give us anything we couldnt handle. I love you more then words can say. I miss you more then you will ever know. I still have my days. and your daddy does to. But we have the comfort of knowing we get to be with you again. We are sure trying to live the best we can and be the best we can so that we can raise you and be with you FOREVER.. We love you sweetheart! AMEN...